Cause-effect

Cause-effect.
Why must you blame everyone but yourself?
You think you're so perfect because you can
sing and write, and work for your money
to support yourself.
You are nothing!
A Nobody!
Just a simple human-being
with an extravagant mind.
You are attractive
but she doesn't notice
because you won't allow her.
You're admirable
but she has no idea.
Your coy-lack-of response
has deluded your very essence
of showing your self-worth.
You are fluid and it runs-
It runs down a stream of fiery rivers
where she does not care to swim.
I mean, who would?
Would you swim the sulfurous lake?
I didn't think so.
So tell me,
how do "I" get out?
I am drowning
sinking deeper into my skin
with my bones exposed
sore as they tingle.
The scars of marrow
averting from the obvious fractures
yeah you know
you know all about them
My face
My beautiful face is the only piece
at the surface
My body, in flames
is the laughing stock of the ash
Pompeii? No.
Worse?
Far worse.
The brain-storm is conducting current
and its' voltage is regurgitating time.
Why in the name of all things holy
should I surrender to the confines of time?
Everything has an end
and my body
fully submerged
is nowhere to be found.

Fiction Collection 2011
©Bobby Ruelas